There have been multiple times this year where I have told myself that I was going to put pen to paper, fingers to keyboard, and start writing again. Multiple times it hasn’t happened. I think that after having to write things for my degree, I revelled in having the time and space to not have to write anything, but then when it got to the point where I wanted to, I almost forgot how to.
That sounds silly, but it’s the only way to explain it. Like when you haven’t ridden a bike in year and you get that split second of, holy shit can I even do this anymore? What annoys me about this more than anything is the fact that I actually had got to the point at the end of my degree, where I was very confident with my work and wasn’t doubting everything I had written. But this feels almost like going back to square one.
So for those who don’t know November is when NaNoWrMo take place. It’s where you take the month of Novemeber to just try and write a novel. I debated with doing it, but then when I decided I wanted to, I felt as though it was too late in the game to get started. However it was the spur I think I needed to get me into the writing frame mind again. I have found myself writing little bits of poetry here and there which hasn’t happend for months.
Now, one of my final pieces of work I handed in on my course, was one of the only things I’ve worked on that I was super proud of. Since the second I handed it in, I knew I wanted to finish it, I wanted to tell this story, even if I wasn’t really sure what that story was yet. For MONTHS I said that I was going to pick it up again, when in actual fact I couldn’t even lay my eyes on it because I knew how much of a daunting task it would be. But this month has changed that. I’m exctied to be writing again. I want to take on the challenge and while I feel like it’s going to be a bit of an uphill climb, I’m ready to get back on the bike. This is my bike. This story.
So what have I done so far? I’ve reconnected with the characters, I’ve planned every single chapter of the book, I’ve written little excepts, I’m loving it. While I’m still a little worried about sitting down and actually having to write chapters in full, and string together all the little bits I’ve already written, I’m looking forward to it and I can’t wait to get started.
Would you be interetsed in getting writing updates to see how I’m getting on with it? I think it would be a good way to hold myself accountable to getting this finished.