New Year, Same Old Me?

I’ve learnt a lot about myself last year. Some things I secretly think I already knew and some things I’d forgotten about myself. Without really realising it, I took a step back from trying to grow and change and just took the time to really get to know me.

So hi, my name’s Taylor. I say that I don’t because I much prefer a shower, but I love a good bath. Sometimes I sit and watch the same episodes of my favourite TV shows because it makes me feel better. As much as I might like to try, I will never be the type to put a full face of makeup on every single day, I just haven’t got the time. I have a bit of a hoarder issue with things like books and DVDs, but I think this is because I spent so much of my life losing myself in them, and parting with them would be like losing a part of myself.

I met some of the most incredible people last year, who taught me that there is nothing wrong with just being who you are. I found out that people really can just like the nerdy, food-loving, nose in a book person that I am, and better yet they support you. I embraced the cracks in my foundation and realised that there was no use beating myself up over old friendships that had ended, they didn’t know the real me anyway.

I have what most would probably call an unhealthy relationship with food, on most days I would agree, but then I have more cheese and all is right in the world again. I am starting the year almost 2 stone heavier than when I started last year, but last year I was sick. I finally found out that I am stronger than the disease that lives inside of me, but we now happily (most of the time) co-exist in the same body. I am a full on nerd sometimes (read: all the time) and I’m slowly learning how to let others see that and not be embarrassed.

I don’t have a lot of friends, for multiple reasons, however, I now have an army of internet friends who I am determined to meet. It’s amazing how people you’ve never met before can be more supportive and there for you than the people around you. I am single because I need the time to find out what I want in life and figure out the kind of person I am. You have to love you first. And I am slowly learning to love myself with every day that passes.

I’ve made no real resolutions this year, no weight loss plan, no new haircut or taking part in some new fad. I am no longer the person I was a year ago, and I am happy to keep slowly evolving, continually changing. I don’t think I’ll be 100% happy with where I am or who I’ll be this time next year, honestly, I’m not sure I ever will be, but I know I’ll be happier. I’ll at least be on my way.

2 thoughts on “New Year, Same Old Me?

  1. Julia says:

    This is such a good way to look at the year, to just try and find ways to make yourself happier. You’re completely right that taking time to get to know yourself sometimes results in finding the best version of yourself. A new year doesn’t always mean a need to find a new you. Happy New Year x

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